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Hello.
Today, I finished my last midterms...and I'm mentally dead.
Despite clocking in tons of hours for the finals, the scores were all over the place: barely passing, passing (but not excelling) and some that surprisingly turned out well.
I really wanted all of them to be decent (was used to getting A's and B's, for the most part) and that desire is somewhat shot due to my barely passing classes (the midterms were in the 60%s...so they will probably end up a C if I buck up - something I intend to do so I don't outright fail at the end: my biggest fear). I was shooting for a high GPA so I could get a good residency and head home (I'm out of state). However, I'm now not so sure if that is even achievable...or what kind of GPA I need to muster to recover from this debacle.
My expectations have since fallen considerably, going from a "I'm going to get straight-A's" to "C's get degrees." I'm frankly just burnt - I'll continue trying my best in courses to muster a decent grade (meeting with the professors to go over the exam), but I'm frankly at a loss concerning my future. I really want to work in a hospital or clinic, so having that residency (don't really care in what at this point) will help to get such a job alongside other potential career moves (i.e. working at an optometry school).
Anyways, apologies for the rant from a first-year. I'm just pretty disappointed with my exam results and I expected better from myself, especially since my mentor and a few of my peers aced their midterms - A's all around. That and this is only the first-year, supposedly the easiest courses within the curriculum.
Sigh...
Today, I finished my last midterms...and I'm mentally dead.
Despite clocking in tons of hours for the finals, the scores were all over the place: barely passing, passing (but not excelling) and some that surprisingly turned out well.
I really wanted all of them to be decent (was used to getting A's and B's, for the most part) and that desire is somewhat shot due to my barely passing classes (the midterms were in the 60%s...so they will probably end up a C if I buck up - something I intend to do so I don't outright fail at the end: my biggest fear). I was shooting for a high GPA so I could get a good residency and head home (I'm out of state). However, I'm now not so sure if that is even achievable...or what kind of GPA I need to muster to recover from this debacle.
My expectations have since fallen considerably, going from a "I'm going to get straight-A's" to "C's get degrees." I'm frankly just burnt - I'll continue trying my best in courses to muster a decent grade (meeting with the professors to go over the exam), but I'm frankly at a loss concerning my future. I really want to work in a hospital or clinic, so having that residency (don't really care in what at this point) will help to get such a job alongside other potential career moves (i.e. working at an optometry school).
Anyways, apologies for the rant from a first-year. I'm just pretty disappointed with my exam results and I expected better from myself, especially since my mentor and a few of my peers aced their midterms - A's all around. That and this is only the first-year, supposedly the easiest courses within the curriculum.
Sigh...